Space Shuttle Columbia
[ 2-2-03 ][ 7:15 p.m. pst ][ By Rice ]
I'm feeling a bit guilty, and a bit annoyed that I'm experiencing this guilt. When I read the news of Space Shuttle Columbia exploding into kibbles and bits, I felt... nothing. I watched the video of the shuttle re-entering Earth in shards and I felt... nothing.
This is a stark contrast to when I heard the news on 9-11. My head started to spin and I nearly hit a wall with my car. But yesterday all the coverage on Columbia just washed over me emotionlessly. I think about the astronauts that perished, and how their families must feel, and somewhere dimly in my head I can note sympathy and sadness. Somewhere, dimly. The rest of me mechanically took in the news without blinking twice.
That's why I'm feeling guilty now--because of my lack of emotions towards this ordeal. It seems to be big news. I can't go to two webpages without seeing someone mentioning it. The evening news is littered with hypothesis and condolences.
But dammit all to bloody heck, I can't conjure up any flaming emotions. Am I just numb, or am I a cold blooded rat bastard? Am I so used to death and tragedy now? Am I that jaded already? If I am, I don't want to be.
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